Friday 30 March 2007

Inside

What lies behind
That lovely pair of eyes,
That soft face,
That beautiful smile?

What thoughts run through
That wonderful mind,
That burgeoning intellect,
That superior wit?

What are you trying to tell me
When you smile and turn away,
When you lift an eyebrow,
When you rub that strand of hair between your fingers?

What emotions lie hidden?
Where do your feelings show?
Where is that bubbling laughter?
Or that despair so cold?

Tell me what lies behind that mask of yours
Behind that stoic facade
Riotous joy, or snowy indifference,
Or perhaps a spark of interest?

Why do you glance at me so?
Why that secret smile?
Why the hesitations, and the frowns?
Why that little sigh?

Let me into your world
And you'll find yourself in mine.

-The Lost Soul by Ana'rien, 16th year of Emperor Crydan.



Tuesday 20 March 2007

On Life, On Purpose

Life.

We live it.

The question: What is considered to have life?

Physically, a living being breathes and responds. But would a plant be a living being? Physically, perhaps.

Non-physically, something that has life also has purpose, thoughts, feelings. Now, would a plant be a living being? It breathes, it responds, it has purpose. So, it should be a living thing. Or should it not?

Let's take a look at one example. Let's say there's a soldier who had been trained to kill, to obey, to move on primeval battle instincts ever since it was a child. He had been taught not to question, not to make his own decisions, not to make any friends, not to have second thoughts despite his own feelings.

So, the soldier breathes, responds (to a certain extent), has purpose, thinks (although only what he's been trained to think of) and has feelings (although he has no permission to entertain them). Well, does he have life?

Physically and non-physically, I say yes.
But all the same, he has no life.

No freedom. No friends. No loved ones. No choice. No self.

No life.






Life.

We live it.

The question: What is considered to have life?

A plant breathes, responds, has purpose, but does not think or feel. Nonetheless, it is doing what Nature dictates. Now wouldn't this plant be considered to have life?

Hmm....



footnote:
erm, this just random scribblings... trying to emulate jw3rn's posts which have kuasa pengangkat bulu roma

Conqueror

I came
I saw
I conquered

What I saw
I've taken

What I desired
I now have

My dreams
Have borne fruit
Overwhelmingly

I am the Master of the known world
I hold the destiny of nations in my hands
Power has no other master

But the more I conquer
The more I know
That power cannot satisfy
That wealth cannot bring happiness
That true friendship is not born of war

The more I conquer
The more I find
That I am doomed
To be separate
From true satisfaction

Love is now a fleeting thing
Forever somewhere in the distance
Something I can only long for
For love cannot be taken or bought

I yearn, I hunger
For meaning
As emptiness threatens to overwhelm
I find no purpose within

Yes, immortal am I!
In the annals of history
The greatest emperor of all times

But immortality is nothing
When loneliness fills the heart

What good is it
If a man gains the whole world
Yet cannot find peace
Or joy
Or even happiness?

It is my karma
To be alone
Forever

I AM THE KING OF THE WORLD!!!
But still the slave of the heart.

-Writings of the Emperor, 16th Century A.L.

Homecoming

Burn!

Hasegawa conjured up a small tornado of black fire and sent it at Roth, the mage Hasegawa was sent to kill.

Coolly, the mage cast a counter-spell and immediately attacked Hasegawa.

Roth sent forth a bolt of pure energy struck Hasegawa full in the chest and sent the battered man from Kamelar flying three feet away. He landed roughly on the dusty ground, causing a storm of dirt to rise around him.

"I told you that this fight will be quick," said Roth. "Your skills are no match for mine."

Shield!

With that, Roth erected a special force field that blocks off any flow of energy into the area covered by the Shield but he himself can open it anywhere he wants to allow energy to flow in for his use. Roth could finish Hasegawa off at any moment he wished.

But let's have a little bit of practise, thought Roth with a smug expression on his face.

Slowly, Hasegawa rose to his feet. His entire body was burned by arcane fire. His left arm was severed, his chest was close to being shattered completely. But for the sake of his divine mistress, he knows that he must prevail. In spite of the mortal injuries, he somehow stayed alive. Painfully, lifted his bloodied right fist.

Roth merely lifted his eyebrows contemptuously.

"Still unwilling to give up?" he sneered. "Sixor must be proud of Her puppet."

With a flick of his hand, a bolt of arcane energy blasted Hasegawa in the chest. But this time, Sixor's avatar didn't budge, and at this, Roth took a slight step back in puzzlement.

With whatever modicum of strength left in him, Hasegawa had summoned energy.

This cannot be, thought Roth. I've already sealed this place up. My fortress is totally devoid of energy and only I can draw in energy from outside the shell. But how did he do it? He wasn't affected by my spell just now.

Roth eyed his opponent. He felt a cold stab of fear pierce him. Hasegawa had a queer aura around him. It made Roth feel uneasy and lifeless. Presently, Hasegawa's wounds were disappearing. Even his missing left arm was reconstructing from thin air. Then, he saw Hasegawa's eyes. At this, Roth gasped with terror. They were blacker than night and in them, Roth could sense great and horrible power. Death was there... Death was standing before him! Roth knew he was doomed. A Reaper was there to collect his soul and to send it to the land of eternal suffering.... Nothing can be done now.

Then, Hasegawa spoke, but not only his voice came forth. The voices of the other avatars also resonated in the dark chamber that was Roth's hideout.

I speak with the words of my gracious mistress who watches over me,
who is just and dutiful. She guides the worthy into Her realm and She leads the newborns into Edenia. May the heavens strengthen Her hand as She strikes those who seek to emulate Her without Her blessings.

Roth, Doom Mage of Tinovu, hear me as I say this. I, with the authority of Sixor, hereby seize your life-force!

Roth feel on his knees, trembling uncontrollably. He watched as Hasegawa slowly advanced on him. Roth closed his eyes and waited for his fate. Religious piety was not his strong point but he said a small prayer of forgiveness to Sixor, hoping his punishment would be lighter. He felt the Reaper's hand on his forehead.

Roth's eyes shot open and his mouth opened in pain. Gasping for breath, Roth clawed at Hasegawa's hand but to no avail. His face contorted into a mask of pure torment as he felt his soul being sucked away from his body. His skin turned green, then blue, then purple, then black. His eyes shrivelled away and his flesh rotted instantaneously. Roth's remains collapsed unceremoniously to the ground.

Then, Sixor's powers left Hasegawa. He dropped to his knees feeling entirely exhausted and fatigued. Hasegawa vomited as the putrid smell of rotted flesh and the sight of Roth's corpse invaded his senses. Also, Hasegawa felt sickened because he did not only take Roth's soul - he drank his life-force. His head was swimming and his vision blurred.

Well done, my loyal servant.

Hasegawa passed out.

***

"Seona!"

The woman immediately dropped her washing basket and rushed out to see who had called her.

Please be him, she hoped fervently. Please be him!

She stopped at the door and tears of joy formed. She ran into his arms and cried her heart out.

"Oh, Hasegawa," she said. "I was so worried."

Hasegawa knew he would have to endure his wife's yelling and screaming later but being home was all that he cared about. For the moment. More duties were bound to come. All the same,
being home was all that he cared about at that moment.

"I am sorry my love," he said simply.

The couple shared a passionate kiss.

"Welcome home Hasegawa."




footnote:

Darn it, not satisfied with this story!! NO NO NO!! It's not good enough... I'll look for what's wrong. Argh, let's face it, writing fiction just isn't my forte.

Poignant Representations

Questions are many
Answers are few

Dilemmas are many
Thinkers are few

Choices are many
Makers are few

Paths are many
Walkers are few

Truths are many
Speakers are few

Words are many
Meanings are few

If the corrupt are here
Then the questions overflow

If the greedy are here
Then the dilemmas are pointless

If the guilty are here
Then choices are defunct

If the lost are here
Then paths are useless

If the twisted are here
Then truths are futile

If the liars are here
Then what are words?

footnote:
These are the words of my own design. I speak from my heart, and it has nothing to do with Edenia. But it has a slight ancient tang to it, that's why it's here.

Monday 19 March 2007

Emotion: Hate

When anger
Takes control
The atmosphere changes

The soul grows uneasy
The heart rages
The spirit burns
And the mind is consumed

Sanity flees
Consciousness overheats
Only Conscience whispers

Jugdement crumbles
Rationality is overthrown
As passion reigns

A fire burns
Deep within
Consuming everything
Waiting only
To be exposed
By Action

Imagination leaps
As death replayed
In the mind's eye
Sees death and suffering

Fantasy turns into reality
As self-control dims
And circumstances turn
Past the point of no return

Then reality hits
Like cold water
Putting out the fire
Conscience starts to scream

Understanding sweeps the floor away
Comprehension sets in
Guilt and remorse
Shatters the soul forever

There is no turning back

Wednesday 14 March 2007

Love: Agape

Choice
Is grasped by none other
Than thyself.

Thought
Is fashioned
Only within the barrier
Of the mind
Of the sprit
And of the soul.

Hate
Exists only
Within the realm of Choice
And in the solitude of Thought
Though it may be provoked.

Forgiveness
Is also a captive of Choice
But is compelled by Love
And is possible
Only by knowing Sin.

Fear
Is also an offspring of Choice
But can only affect
When the Unknown
Comes into its own.

Love
Is the father of Choice
And also its son
But can only survive
With Patience
Without Hate
With Forgiveness
And without Fear.

But Love can always be found
If you know
Where to begin

It begins
Before the beginning of all things
And its end
Cannot be seen.

-The Book of Peace, 1300 A. L.

Eros is dead. Mars reigns. Sometimes.

This is not an original Edenia post. This is just a re-posting of an original poem written by a friend of mine that i've found worthy enough to re-post here (not many of those around).
Anyway, here goes:

Inexorable

The injustice of one man
Done openly, plain
For all to see.
The lack of conscience
The absence of shame.

Complicated
The feeling of hatred.
Irrationally set
Against imaginary enemies
In a place where logic flees.

Emotions run wild,
Fluctuate.
Where once was tolerance
Now negation of love.

Will we ever understand
How hatred can consume a man?

-may yap-

Hope you don't mind, May. But it IS a good poem. =)

Thursday 8 March 2007

Endings

"Look into his eyes," was the cold whisper. "See the fear."

"No!" the man chained to the wall cried. "No! Not him! He's just a boy!"

"He's not just a boy," was the mocking reply. "He's your boy."

"Don't! I'll do anything, anything! Just let him go!" The man in chains was desperate.

"Too late."

The sound of steel piercing soft flesh ripped through the dungeon. Then a gurgle, and the thud of a body falling limp to the ground.

"NO!" the man wailed, then collapsed against his chains, sobbing. "Curse you! Curse you to hell!" His tormentor only smiled mockingly. "Why me? Why us?" the man sobbed out.

His tormentor kneeled before him, then pulled off the hood he was wearing.
The man gasped and recoiled in shock.

"You know why, father." The grin on the executioner's face was evil as he raised his dagger.

The boy on the ground sat up, grinned, and wiped the fake blood from his face.

The dagger glinted as it came down.

And the curtains closed.

* * *

The crowd was still in shock as it exited the building into the moonlight.

"That was the worst ending I've ever seen," Wytcliffe complained. His companion, Rihan, frowned.

" Enigmatic, certainly. But why the worst?"

"Because it's inconclusive. You've no idea what happened in the end."

"Why do you say so? There were plenty of clues in the play about what happened in the end."

"Yes, but the clues pointed to five different endings! Five! Again, inconclusive!"

"But I think that's the point. We're supposed to decide for ourselves what the ending is."

"But that's so.... unsatisfying! There must be a pointer towards one of the endings that we overlooked."

"You think so? Well, let's run through it again, then. The play opened with the scene of Zelhar's birth. It was obviously a happy scene. Tara and Rolan were proud parents. Then they showed Tara's death, which Rolan blamed on Zelhar."

"Wait, remember the confrontation just before that? Between Tara and Rolan? It sort of implied that Rolan was cheating on Tara."

"Yeah, so maybe Rolan blamed both Zelhar and himself for Tara's suicide."

"And Zelhar blamed Rolan and hated him."

"Maybe, but anyway Rolan couldn't stand to live with Zelhar anymore, and exiled him."

"Remember the scene of Zelhar with the portrait of his father? Obviously he wanted revenge."

"But the conversation between Zelhar and the stranger implied that Zelhar understood and forgave his father."

"Possibly. But I still think Zelhar wanted revenge."

"Ah, we'll never know for sure. Anyway, Rolan married the other woman, Selia. Their marriage scene implied that Selia was his former mistress."

"Yeah, and also that Selia's son was his bastard child."

"Who loved him. Remember that scene of the Festival of Dreams?"

"Yes, but maybe that love was superficial. Remember the farmhouse scene?"

"I think that scene just showed that Caith didn't like Rolan's dominating personality."

"Or maybe it showed that Caith hated Rolan for taking away his mother's love and relagating him to a bastard's standing?"

"Could be. But anyway Selia's murder proved that something was amiss."

"How can you be so certain that Selia was murdered? Selia's conversation with Caith before that seemed to show that they knew what was coming."

"True. But did you notice that Rolan wasn't too aggrieved about Selia's death? Maybe Rolan murdered her himself."

"That's stretching it a bit."

"Maybe you're supposed to. But anyway Zelhar had a part in it."

"True. But what I don't understand is how he suddenly reappeared after it seemed so certain that he was killed. Rolan positively identified the body."

"Maybe Rolan was lying. Also, remember back early on, the comment that Zelhar looked a lot like Rolan's long-lost brother? Maybe it was Rolan's long-lost brother who was killed."

"Or maybe it was Zelhar who was killed, and Rolan's brother the one who came back to haunt him."

"Arggh! That's true! Man, this is so confusing!"

"It's supposed to be, I guess. Forces you to think a little. Recall how the play ends?"

"Rolan and Caith kidnapped, Caith supposedly murdered, Zelhar or someone who pretended to
be him revealed, then Caith wakes to see Rolan at the brink of getting murdered? That's doubly confusing."

"Quadruply. The way I see it, there are five possible explanations. Either Zelhar wanted revenge, teamed up with Caith, who was also angry, and murdered Rolan and Selia..."

"Or Caith, Selia and Zelhar played a big practical joke on Rolan to make him see the error of his ways...."

"Or Zelhar died, and his uncle, Rolan's brother, murdered Selia and Rolan for cheating on him, with the help of Caith, who was actually the child of Selia and Rolan's unnamed brother..."

"Or Rolan murdered Tara, Zelhar, and Selia, and Caith and his uncle, Rolan's brother, took revenge..."

"Or Zelhar used Caith, who thought it was just a big practical joke, to take revenge on Rolan and Selia."

"Haha, maybe. The last one's pretty far-fetched, though. I prefer the first explanation."

"I don't think it's that simple. I prefer the third."

"Well, to each his own...."

And thus the two friends continued arguing as they walked in the moonlight.