Wish me luck

Jakkar, my comrade and beloved brother.

Thank you, brother, for your letter. It was good to imagine your deep, clear voice resounding in my head. I am well, and I hope you are too. And I truly hope that our well-being will last, though the odds are stacked against it.

It pains me no less that I am leaving. If I could, I would have stayed in Aedila, where life is secure and carefree, safe and sound in ignorant bliss. But it is not to be. Destiny and duty calls.

Do not worry for me, or for my safety. You know as well as I do that Father, for all his shortcomings, taught us well and truly how to take care of ourselves. Indeed, if it was not for him, I wouldn't have the strength or the courage to attempt this quest. But let us not speak further about him. Let sleeping dogs lie.

I thank thee also for your advice, brother. But what you told me I already knew. But then you already knew that I knew, didn't you? I will indeed travel as a mercenary, but I'm afraid Kramr's Valley is unavoidable. All the other routes are watched too closely. I would rather brave a few mountain wolves than risk detection so early into my quest. But do not worry, my skill of Animal Kinship is as strong as ever.

But I must admit I'm afraid, brother. Not of the journey to Crydan's kingdom, but of what lies in store for me in the Wolf King's court. You know as well as I do Crydan's view of women. Diplomacy, courtesy, and etiquette may not be enough for me to even resist his depradations, what more to say persuade him to risk almost certain death. But I will do what I must.

Do not fear, brother, I have no intention of dying before you do. It may ease your worries to know that Rievan is coming with me. He will be no use in a fight, I'm afraid, but his companionship will be a steadying hand to me. His quick mind will also be welcome as we attempt to slip through the Krayt's network of spies.

Lastly, but by far not the least, there is a rumour that a new Hero has arisen in the east. An Eldritch Knight with great power is said to have crossed the Endless Sea, in preparation for the Turning of an Age. I will seek him out when I get to Crydan's kingdom.

Stay safe, brother, and may your sword never stop shining and your arm never grow weak. Hold on till I return. I may carry the hope of our people, but I will need a people to return hope to. Be the Shining One that was foretold.

Your angel and sister,
Correa

Fare thee well

Correa, my dear angel and sister,

May the blessings of heaven continue to pour into your life overflowing, and may life be abundant with returns. Your distant brother once again writes you a letter.

I heard that you are leaving. It pains me deeply to have received the news. Honestly, I wish for you to continue staying in Aedila, where it is safer. But this time, I have no say over your decision. You are a woman now, and you have the right to do what you feel is right. I must say I am awfully proud that you took up the challenge to be our messenger. But then again, I am worried for your safety.

The journey ahead of you is filled with numerous perils, and I can only pray that you keep your wits about you and stay safe. Never forget what Father has taught you. His teachings will help you survive the journey up north. Avoid Kramr's Valley - it's filled with mountain wolves this time of year. Go into the City of Garoth under the guise of a mercenary. You should be able to slip pass the emperor's bounty hunters quite easily.

Once you're in Crydan's kingdom, seek him. Do not neglect diplomacy and courtesy and etiquette. Persuade him, slowly gain his trust and bring reinforcements to our battlefield.

Try not to die, dear sister. You are the rebels' only hope. Our prayers go with you, and may the gods speed you.

And one last thing, make sure you remember to always clean your sword before you sheathe it.

Your comrade and brother,
Jakkar.

Look at me.

Why

Are you afraid

To meet my eyes?

Do you feel shy,

Awed, stupified?

Please don't.

Why

Are you afraid

To meet my eyes?

Have you wronged me,

Hurt me, misjudged me?

Don't feel guilty.

Why

Are you afraid

To meet my eyes?

Can I see through you,

More than you want me to?

I'm only human.

And then

I whisper to myself,

Why

Am I afraid

To meet your eyes?

-Maia-

Guilt-ridden joy

"I've got a problem man..."

"What's up?"

"Let's say you're in a race against another guy. You win the race, and you get the prize. Naturally, you feel really great and happy because you won. Plus, the prize was something you have always wanted."

"Yeah, go on."

"While you're rejoicing, you realise that the guy you just beat, needs the prize more than you do. Then you start feeling sorry for the guy, but you still don't want to give the prize to him. You won - you deserve the prize! But then again, the other guy is down, miserable and broken because he lost."

"And, that's how you feel right now? Ouch... Joy and guilt... Not a very good combination."

***

This should be a very familiar conversation. If it isn't... *shrug*

A conversation

"Hey, I'm really bored now..."

"Yah, me too!"

"I missed you, you know?"

"Owh, I missed you too! xD"

"*hugs* *muahs*"

"Hehe..."

"What have you been up to lately?"

"Nothing much. Owh ya, currently fermenting."

***

Jave: wakaka!

Ouch

"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologise to me."

"Why not? I hurt you, and I'm so sorry... Sorry..."

"..."

"Are you okay?"

"Don't ever ask me if I'm okay.. I hate that question."

"Why?"

"Because I have to answer 'yes' when it really is 'no'."

Everything is Alright

Tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.
o please tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.

Give me a reason to end this discussion,
To break with tradition, to fall and divide.
'Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.
o please tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.

I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!

I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.
o please tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.

Give me a reason to end this discussion
To break with tradition, to fall and divide,
So let's not get carried away
With the process of healing relations
I don't want to waste your time.

Tell me that you're alright,
ya everything is alright.
o please tell me that you're alright,
That everything is alright.


***

This is a song actually... It's called "Everything is Alright" sang by Motion City Soundtrack.
Motion City Soundtrack is a really good punk rock band. Better than Simple Plan in my opinion.

Edenia is deviating away from her original purpose...

Evil

"Why did you kill the girl?"

"She'd be left all alone in the world...now that I've killed her parents."

"You're so evil..."

"Heh... No I'm NOT. I did something good; I spared an innocent child of her lonely, dark, gloomy future."

"Choosing the lesser of two evils is still choosing evil, FYI."

Alea iacta est

"Alea iacta est" by ~oulka on deviantART

Lost

Of all the things I've lost

The one thing I miss the most

Is my mind.


-BenGarth-

He

He
Thinks he knows me
But he doesn't

He
Thinks I'm all right
But I'm not

He
Tries to understand
But he can't

He
Knows something's wrong
But he doesn't know what to do

I cry out
But he cannot listen

I scream
But he cannot hear

I touch
But he can't feel

I knock
But he's too busy
To open the door

He
Is my sun, moon, and stars
My whole universe

But a miss
Is as good
As a mile

-Raith'la Sulan, 2nd Age-

She

Is the sugar in my brown tea
Is the photons in my diffracted spectrum
Is the pigments in my painting
Is the vibrations in my song
Is the airstream beneath my wings


Shit...

SHE IS THE LOVE I COULD NEVER RETAIN IN MY SIEVE-LIKE ARMS.
Like water, she flows away.

No matter how hard I try to collect the remnants of my heart, I can never finish picking up the little pieces.

They crumble more and more as my clumsy fingers close upon them.

I try to glue my heart together, so that I can give it to her.
So that I can say, I give you my heart because it belongs to you, and truly mean it.

But still I'm here, on my knees, scrambling around for the missing shards as she waits on me. When I look up with hope, she stands there watching over me, with a smile on her lips, patiently enduring the wait.

But one day, when I look up, she was gone. I couldn't see her anymore. Not that my tears helped my sight.

When all hope was lost, she returned. I was overjoyed.

Then she told me, my beloved, no need to pick up the pieces anymore. I know your heart belongs to me, and mine yours. That's all we need to know.

I was devastated. Or was I?

Heartless

Words
So small
So petty
So meaningless
So powerful

Sharper than a dagger
Words are
Inflicting wounds
Greater than any other

They say
"Sticks and stones
Can break my bones,
But words
Will never hurt me"

I say
"Sticks and stones
Can break your bones,
But only words
Can slay your spirit"

I try
To ignore it
The accusations
The mutterings
The stings of tongues

I try
To assure myself
That their opinions
Do not matter
That I cannot please everybody

But it hurts
It hurts so bad

Why, oh why?

I suffer

- Ch'iale Verin, 235 2A

Unmistakable

I'll pick up my sword

I'll wield it night and day

But now I'm on the floor
Bleeding

My fingers slip on the hilt

Every blow I take

Every punishing blow I take

I take it in full

In full

In full understanding

I shall prevail

I shall remain standing

With my sword firm in my hand

But can I survive??

How can I? when the opponent I face is

Myself

It's too true

That as I sit

Enthroned

He lies still

Entombed

The epitaph is clear

I can alomost read the words

I swear

I cuss

I befoul the air with words of fury

The ire blinds me

It stings

I tighten my grip on my long lethal blade of silver

It falls

Even as I fall

It is unmistakable

That I'm about to yield to my own

Wants

She is the one I am wont to have

But we are separated by seas

Vast and untamed

So far away

Thus, I fight with myself

I grapple with this indecision night and day

I seek to let go

Therefore

I wield my sword

It is unmistakable

UNMISTAKABLE

When one of me wins, I end up losing

What's left, is either my mind or my heart
And even that, at the cost of either.

So Far Away

I try to say I'm sorry
Words fail, can't seem to see
I try to accept the story
I'm lost inside of me

Reason hides its face
I can't meet your gaze

Words can't heal a broken heart
Time just adds the pain
It's hard to make a brand new start
Feeling it break again

You're
So far away
It's just that I feel
So far away
I'm falling cause you're
So far away
And I can't hear you
So far away
Let me go

It's so hard to see the memories
I can't stop thinking 'bout you and me
Knowing you love me, but I
Can't stop the pain
I need to set you free

You're
So far away
So far away
So far away
Let me go.

-Asheroth-

I just thought I'd do what jw3rn has been doing - reposting stuff from different sites.
Here's something really personal. Either it is truly something special and personal, or I'm just damn perasan.

***

It's hard to forget
The first time I met you
Those mesmerizing pair of eyes
In my mind
The thoughts of you
Cannot be erased
When I hold your hand and feel your warmth
It's really too much for me to handle
Your innocence
I would like to treasure
When I see you suffering
I will feel sad
Oh...

Just afraid I will fall in love with you
Dare not let myself be too close to you
Afraid I've got nothing to offer you
To love you may require a lot of courage too

Just afraid I will fall in love with you
Maybe one day I wouldn't be able to control myself
from falling in love with you
Thinking of you only hurts myself
I just can't help falling in love with you

What's the reason?
That I meet you again
I really really don't wish to
Fall into the love trap like this
Oh...

***

Actually that's a Chinese song, what was posted up there is the translated version.
The name of the song is Qing Fei De Yi sang by Yu Cheng Qing (aka Harlem Yu), which by the way is the one of the soundtracks for Meteor Garden (aka the repulsive TV show starred by the boy-band F4).

Hmm...
I dearly hope that the person who posted the song lyrics in her blog meant something deeper...

A Second Chance

I'm not sure I know you anymore.

Reality just hit

Socked you in the face.

Yes, you knew, even expected it

and still chose to live in denial.

Letting you go was hard for me

but I gradually learnt to hold back.

I watched you make your own decisions,

both the good and the bad.

I knew you had to grow up sometime,

whether or not you were prepared.

Slowly, but surely,

you alienated me.

Now, you want to start over again.

It won't be that easy, my friend.

I'll be there for you when she leaves

But things will never be the same.

We are talking people here,

not some petty game.

I won't ask, "Was she worth it?"

Rhetorically.

I, myself, do not know too.

Perhaps you really didn't need us then,

perhaps all you needed was her.

All the same, I can't say I'm sorry,

For everyone learnt something new.

We both did some growing up

and matured, as we had to.

Maybe there was no good or bad,

just a choice between good and best.

Maybe, just maybe,

it would be better

starting over once more.

This time, both of us whole souls,

and a second chance worth fighting for.

One we won't take lightly.

For, out of that may come

a friendship richer than before.

-Maia-

*not an original Edenia poem. Written by May. Maia is May's alter ego in Edenia, given to acknowledge her as an auxilliary contributor. =P May, if you don't like the name, you can choose another one. Hehe.

The boy in the window

He walks down the street
Alone
Afraid
An orphan

His feet are muddy
His hair grimy
His body stained with dirt
Existence holds only one meaning for him:
Surivival

Uncared for, unkempt,
Lost and unloved
That little heart of his
Once so vibrant and full
Now empty, dead

Hearing laughter in the air
He turns
Drawn by the sounds of love
Of joy
Of happiness
A longing fills his heart

He scurries to the window
And puts his nose on the pane
He sees
Daddy playing with Jo
Mummy doing up Alice's hair
Blacky the puppy frisking around

His face is filled with wonder
He watches quietly
He giggles at their laughs
And smiles at their giggles

Suddenly Alice turns her head
And lets out a cry of surprise
Pointing a chubby little finger
At the grubby face in the window

Startled
Ashamed
He turns to run
And reaches the gate
Before hesitating

Pausing, he looks back
Hope struggles with fear
For dominion within
He wavers

But fear wins out
Fear and shame
He slips through the gate
And disappears
Never to be seen again

-Stories, Drae'la Hunalan, 113 3A

Edenia, the poem

Edenia

Melancholy and sweet the footprint
That a western sun leaves in the blue
When it bathes in the distances the spaces
With the last rays of its light
While the night lays out over the heavens
The mysterious tulle of half-light.

Smooth like the song that the poet
In an involuntary sigh gives,
Pure like the half-opened flowers
Of the jungle in the wild darkness
Trapped in the mossy branches
Not a single beam of sunlight filters through.

Woman, totally pasionate woman, chaste
Lit with the light of the ideal...
Radiant with virtue and beauty
Like in my soul I came to dream,
In her dreams of open tenderness
Will she find it thus?

by José Asunción Silva

*not an original Edenia poem. I googled 'Edenia' and found this.... Whoa...=P By the way, i also found out that Edenia is also a world in the Mortal Kombat game franchise...and it is a girl's name as well. =(

Mistakes, forfeiting our sakes.

I took a step too far
For I was "too caring"

I was beaten
I was forced off the stage

"Please don't do it anymore
For our sakes."

Tears flow down my face
For I was misunderstood

His selfishness blinds him
His love for her clouds his vision

The pain seeps through my veins
With any restriction

I begin to lose my direction
F*** you, I love her too much

I deserve as much right
To uplift her sorrowful spirits

"Why can't I talk to her?"
But I dare not ask him.

You broke up
You let go

Don't broken elbow
She let go

Don't force her to stay
Where she never wants to be at

My dear Brother
I still love her the way you do

But she's not yours
Not anymore

I reiterate your words
"You've had your chance, you've had your share."

We fight for her
We fight

But you will lose
If I choose to draw my sword

But I will back off
You are right

I should step away
For our sakes

The three of us
Our sakes.

Moving On

The wounds are healing slowly
But the scars won't go away
The marks will never leave me
But I won't turn back again

Leaving only memories
A new path lies ahead
But I can't hold back the tears
I'm still bound by chains

Broken, I try to move forward
Blindly I run into the unknown

I'm moving on
Still pushing forth
Heading down the path of no return
Leave me alone
I can't go backwards
All I want to do is let go
I'm moving on

Somebody pull me from the mire
Somebody save me from myself
I can't help it, I'm going under
Somebody give me back my soul

I'm moving on
Still pushing forth
Heading down the path of no return
Leave me alone
I can't go backwards
All I want to do is let go
I'm moving on
Let me go

-Asheroth, 236 N.T.F.