Tuesday 24 June 2008

Real

it
is breathtaking
magical,exciting
so they say

it
is resolute
intuitive, beautiful
so they portray

not lies, but
ideals, perhaps
for what i found
was reality
blunt and clumsy
less than
perfect

yet its value
soars
because
what we are
is real



-Maia-

Sunday 15 June 2008

Far (part 3 - End)

As soon as I regained consciousness, I slowly got up into a sitting position. I was still in the same room, but alone this time. I sighed as I recalled Ben-Garth’s effort to “cheer me up”. Perhaps he thought I still had my long-gone promiscuous habits because when I was younger, beautiful women seemed to always take my mind off my problems. But not anymore – I had gotten married and I had a son... HAD a son...

Seth...

I loved him with all my heart. When he was a boy, I would play with him. Running in the fields, exploring the woods, swimming and fishing in brooks, practising magic... But as he grew, we drifted apart. I had to maintain a “macho”, steely outward appearance because it was needed, he needed to become a man on his own, and I believed he had it in him. I mean, come on, he’s my son, is he not?

But his becoming a man at the cost of our relationship... I wonder if my decision was the wiser one...

About 20 years ago, my son sent me a letter while he was at a faraway land. Here was how it went:

“Father,

Happy Father’s Day! I want you to know that I respect you. You are such a responsible and strong father, and I really appreciate that. I always look to you for guidance and I know you won’t fail me. Thank you for everything, father. I love you, my mentor and father.

Your son,

Seth.”

Well, it was more of a note than a letter but the length wasn’t an issue for me. That note brought me to tears because for the first time in a very very long time...I felt like a father, I felt like I had a son! I was a father – my pride restored!

I replied with a note which was almost just as short:

“Dear Son,

Thank you so much for the letter. I love you too, and I’m so proud of you! Keep working hard at whatever you do. Put your back into it!

Your father,

Asheroth.”

It took all the strength in me to pen down the word “love” because it would reveal the parts of me that have lain dormant for decades but now have been resurrected by my son’s note. A few years passed since that Father’s Day, and I was at the docks waiting for my son, hours before his ship’s arrival. Finally, after a long and patient wait, his ship came in and the gangplank was extended. As the passengers trickled out of the ship and passed by me, I craned my neck to catch sight of my son. And ho, there he was, the last one to get off the ship. He saw me too, and his face broke into a smile. Hurriedly, he half-dragged, half-carried his massive suitcase as he rushed towards me. I started walking towards him, yearning for our embrace.

He dropped his suitcase and began to run. And he was waving frantically. I spun on my heels, and time slowed down...

Poison dart... Too late...

The dart pierced my forehead between my eyes, and my body fell limp to the ground. People screamed and scattered in fear.

BIND!

I immobilized the assassin and pulled his mask off, revealing a very shocked face. I did not recognize him, and to my surprise he did not have a tattoo on his left cheek. Assassins were mercenaries, and each guild had their own tattoo.

“Nice shot, but that was my clone,” I told him coolly. “Now tell me, who sent you?”

He started to mumble some words.

“What? Speak up!” I shouted in his ear as I shook him roughly. I was very perplexed at that time because someone wanting me dead...was a very odd notion. Something fishy was going on!

The unmasked assassin continued mumbling, and I realised that he was repeating his words.

Curses, he’s chanting! No!

I barely managed to push him as far away from me as possible before I jumped aside to avoid the explosion. Who in the Blazes of Hell came with the idea of a suicide bomber? But why? WHY? WHY? WHY???

My head was ringing, and I was temporarily deaf. I couldn’t see properly. All I could do was lie on the ground, groaning and trying to make some sense of my surroundings. Seth rushed to my side.

“Father! Are you alright?” he asked worriedly.

“What a clever question...” I muttered.

He smiled apologetically and replied, “Well, your sarcasm is still intact, so I guess you’re pretty fine.”

“That’s a very clever answer too,” I told him.

He sighed, slight frustration showing in his face. I cackled, and then coughed in pain because my chest was hurt by the blow from the blast.

“What’s the point behind all this?” asked Seth, as he slowly propped me up into a sitting position.

“I don’t know. A dart, then a suicide bomber? Targeted at me?” I said. The pain was slowly dissipating as my son used a healing spell on me.

“Save your energy, son,” I wanted to say but before I could utter a word...

Someone cast a spell!

A bolt of lightning zoomed towards us and it barely missed me, but it hit Seth and sent him flying into a wall almost ten feet away. Seth slammed into the wall, cracking it and he fell to the floor. On all fours, he coughed blood. His elbows shook then it gave way and he toppled.

“SETH!!!!” I called out.

I got up into a battle stance, ready to reap whatever arcane energy needed to defend ourselves and to capture the attacker. As I rushed towards my son’s motionless body, I watched the strands of energy in the area, watching for any minute changes in the flow that would betray the hidden attacker’s position.

“Come out and face me, magician!” I shouted. “Duel me!”

Still nothing happened. He must have fled. After a few moments, I decided to let my guard down in order to tend to my son. I started to weave the healing spell when he put his hands on mine, halting my progress. He knew it as much as I did. His internal wounds were beyond repair. Death was imminent. Death was sure.

Damn it!

I took him in my arm and tears welled in my eyes. My son, my son... My negligence caused all this. No, no, no...

“You know what Father... When you replied my letter, for the first time in a very very long time, I felt like I had a father,” Seth struggled to speak in between coughs. He smiled, as beads of tears flowed down his bloody cheeks.

“Asheroth...”

I turned and saw Lady Sixor.

“I am most grieved by the loss of your offspring’s life, not only because I fathom your feelings, but also because of a greater cause. However, I am not at liberty to disclose to you the reason behind all these tragic events.”

I clenched my jaws and fists. Greater cause? She reached out her right hand with her palm facing upwards, and gently flicked her fingers.

Then life left Seth’s body.

I buried Seth myself. And I wondered if I ought to feel any anger or hatred. Vengeance? I don’t know, I was just... numb. I bought myself some new clothes, and burned my blood-stained ones. When I got home, Es-Qara asked me where our son was. I lied to her, saying that he never came back. I assumed that she didn’t believe me because she didn’t ask anything else.

“Asheroth?” Ben-Garth called out to me, waking me from my reminiscing. He and Reuben entered the room.

“Don’t say sorry,” I said. “Just give me my clothes back.”

Camelia walked in with a cake in her hands. It had a long, lighted candle.

“As an apology,” she said demurely, sincerity showing.

I sighed and waved them over.

I blew the candle and cut the cake.

Happy Father’s Day, Asheroth.

Thursday 12 June 2008

Lost

A swordsman without his blade
A musician without sound
An artist without his brush
A singer without melody
A warrior without a cause
An army without a banner


Scattered and defeated
Weathered and worn
But worse of all







Lost.

Sunday 8 June 2008

Colour

Black and white, black and white
Shades of grey in between
Right and wrong, left and right,
Oh, so simple, so clean

But nothing is ever so simple, is it?
Nothing is ever so fine
Life's more than just rhythm, more than just beat
It's MUSIC, melody and rhythm combined

See you not the colours between?
The brilliant hues and subtle shades?
White is but a disguise, black an illusion
Put to shame by colourful confusion

Red, blue, yellow and green
Mixed and matched with shades in-between
I can't see them all, but I don't care
I see enough to be aware

Aware that sometimes the colours matter
Aware that perspectives are monochrome
Aware that trying to build something better
Requires eyes more than just my own

So even when the music dies
So colour lives, vibrant and ALIVE

-Asheroth-

Saturday 7 June 2008

Far (part 2)

"Aww come on Asheroth! Cheer up!" bellowed Ben-Garth, obviously inebriated from too much ale.

I was still sulking. I broke up with Galena. No, she dumped me. She cheated on me. I downed another tankard of ale, then regretted doing it. I struggled to hold the contents of my stomach in. The din in the Red Tavern wasn't exactly helping my throbbing head either.

"What's the matter?" asked Ben-Garth. He gave me a smack on the back.

I belched and everything came out. The roast pork and all the ale. All over the table and the floor. Barmaids screamed and nimbly jumped aside to avoid the stinking cud-like stuff. My friends guffawed.

I was done, and I looked up to see Ben-Garth turning green. He turned away and barfed as well. I joined my friends in laughing at him.

Suddenly I burst out in tears.

I grabbed Ben-Garth's collar and yanked him roughly.

"Why?" I asked.

Ben-Garth suddenly looked sober.

"Why?" I reiterated.

"I don't know, brother of my soul," came the reply.

"Listen Asheroth," said Reuben, clumsily climbing over our table to sit next to me. "I have no idea - hell, I think even all the gods of the Blazing Hells have no idea - why on Edenia would she leave you."

I looked at Reuben. He drank from the tankard in his hand and continued.

"And more astounding is, she left you for sissy Keltho! Which sane, normal woman, would want a stinking 'prince' from the gods-know-where kingdom of whichever suckling pig, a lousy 'prince' like that asshole Keltho?"

"Aye!" My other friends cried in unison, and almost at the same time drank their ale.

"What an ungrateful bitch!"

"Aye!"

"Forget her, dear friend!" cried Reuben.

"Aye!"

Reuben put his arm around me and said, "Don't worry, we know how to fix this, no?"

He whistled, and waved at the bartender. After a short while, a busty barmaid came by and took my arm. She was as strong as a mare, and she pulled me off my seat. My friends cheered, hooted and whistled.

Reuben pinched the woman's buttock and said to her, "Give him a good time, aye?"

I staggered upstairs as the busty barmaid half-led, half-dragged me upstairs the Red Tavern. I stumbled into an empty room. It smelt of flowers - jasmine, rose and daisy. What happened next was a blur...

Undressing... Kissing... Caressing... Love-making...

The next morning I woke up with a splitting headache. But feeling the warm body of that busty barmaid next to mine... it sort of compensated for the hangover. And the heartache left by Galena.

***

"So how do you feel now?" asked Ben-Garth.

"Better."

He laughed.

"I bet ten gold pieces that you want to do it all over again," said Reuben.

I blushed.

They roared with laughter.

Far (part 1)

Ben-Garth jabbed me in the ribs, disrupting my day-dreaming.

"What's with that look?" he asked.

"What look?"

"What look you ask?" he asked slightly annoyed at my pretending.

I shrugged.

"You know what I mean."

I sighed.

He sighed too.

"Listen Asheroth, you've gotta get yourself together. You're the one who's been stressing on how important it is to stay focussed, not to let personal matters get in the way of business," said Ben-Garth.

My chest felt heavy. Not again. No.

"If you won't talk about it, then fine. But, you must come with me," he continued.

I looked at my old friend's face. He offered his hand, and I took it. He promptly pulled me to my feet. He gave me a slap on my back and rested his arm around my shoulder as we walked towards the town.

My head was blank, my mind was blank. Blank.

Don't. Want. To. Think.

I walked absent-mindedly with Ben-Garth guiding me through the town streets.

"Here we are - The Red Tavern," he said after we walked for a while.

The Red Tavern. Old memories. Lots of ale, lots of fights. And lots of nights with whores in the upper floor of this tavern. Ben-Garth feeling nostalgic tonight?

We stepped into the tavern and Reuben, the owner who was also our close friend, bellowed a greeting. He waved us over, and we went to sit at counter.

"Ho, how long has it been, fellas?" said Reuben in his deep, growling voice. He gave a wide grin.

Ben-Garth whispered something into Reuben's ears and his facial expression changed.

"Oh..." said Reuben, his face showing apprehension. "I'll see what I can do."

Reuben placed two tankards of his best ale on the counter as he called for Camelia, one of his servants. Something fishy was going on, and I had a feeling that I was going to be the centre of all the soon to come hoo-ha. I cautiously sipped on my ale. It didn't smell or taste wrong, so I downed the whole mug. Something inside my head told me that I had just done something very unwise.

"Yes, Master Reuben?" asked Camelia as she appeared from the stairs.

Reuben winked and pointed a finger at me.

Wait, something's wrong....???

"Help me bring him upstairs," said Reuben. Ben-Garth put my right arm over his shoulders as Reuben took my left arm.

Why am I not fighting? What's happening? Blast, so they did drug me.

They brought me up the stairs then into a dim candle-lit room with no windows. I could smell flowers - jasmine, rose, daisy. Then they let me lie on the soft, comfortable bed. I watched the men exiting the room, leaving Camelia. She looked at me as she locked the door.

I tried to get up, suddenly realising what they're planning. Oh, so sweet of them. NOT.

"Please mi'lord," said Camelia in a soft, seductive voice as she tiptoed towards me. "Let me do my work."

"No," I began to retort. "I.. thrink yoush.."

What? Curses, the drug's effects.... I was a blabbering old man sitting on the edge of a bed, with a young nubile girl who was about to make love to me without my consent. Or perhaps the drug's aphrodisiac effect will kick in soon, and the act could no longer be considered rape.


Camelia slowly loosed her gown. "I can help you forget the pain... if you just let me..."


I closed my eyes. My mind was on fire - I can't focus. Damned drug. Neurons firing random impulses. Random sensations at random places. Random images flashing in my eyes. Random random random.

Relax. Gather energy.

Camelia was totally nude in front of me now. Her body was lithe, lovely. Her breasts, her hips, her legs, it seemed like she was glowing. She kissed my lips gently, and her hand was slowly encouraging my manhood.

Relax. Gather energy.

She climbed onto my lap, and pressed her soft breasts against my face. Her hand was still exciting my manhood, and I felt myself hardening.

Gather. Gather. Gather..... GATHER!

She pushed my chest and I fell. My body landed on the soft bed. She undressed me.

I felt my body tingling. Starting to loose control. Damn it, I want that girl!


No, I must not loose it. Just a bit more energy....

Camelia was kissing me everywhere, moaning softly. I was getting pretty excited. It felt good. The drug must have enhanced my senses. Her butterfly lips on my chest, slowly moving towards my belly. She was going lower and lower...


Gather. Gather. Release!

BIND!

I managed to cast the spell! Camelia screamed as an invisible force pushed her away roughly. Invisible cords gripped her arms and legs, rendering her unable to move, and unable to continue her "work". I heaved a sigh of relief, and I was sweating from the effort. I passed out just as I saw Reuben and Ben-Garth coming through the door.